Things haven’t been good lately for me in general.
I’m just not feeling anything lately.
It might be depression, it might be a loss of sense of purpose however overall I don’t know. Anything that made me happy over the years no longer exists. It’s just anything, honestly anything and now I rest here in my chair not wanting all the things I once enjoyed. It’s kind of sad overall however in general, I want a simple life without anything that can cause headaches. I don’t want to worry about a car payment, oil change, rent, bills, bills, and can I say it, more bills. I don’t want to have to think about getting my Heating in addition to A/C system air filters cleaned or changed once or twice or how multiple times a year. I don’t want a/c anymore. I just want to feel the breeze come through the window of a apartment and love the fresh smells of whatever the wind brings in. I don’t want to pay someone to make sure I live in comfort anymore, like a cooling tech. I just want a simple life even though I don’t know if that is feasible. Also, I don’t know if or when I got to that simplicity, would I even like it? It’s kind of alarming to think about however in general, it’s what I think about. I’m just fatigued of the new life I have and want a complete change. I think it’s getting to that point in time of my life to make that change. I just don’t know where to start.